Sometimes, in order to mature my faith
and enhance spiritual growth, the Lord in His infinite wisdom will allow me to experience situations in which I will find myself being “pressed out of measure” (*) in various ways, including persecution.
It is, I believe, during the time when I sense
myself to be growing in the grace and knowledge of Jesus Christ that difficulties will arise which place differing degrees
of pressure upon me. This is because I have to be squeezed, shaped and molded
by the firm hands of the Almighty.
Likewise, along this line, when a Christian wishes to fulfill the Lord’s command
to “Go into all the world” and proclaim the gospel that opposition will come.
Threre will be those who will accuse him of having wrong motives. The Christian will be misunderstood. His character will be
assassinated. And this is called “persecution”. And as difficult as it may be to full understand it, God Himself will allow it (within limitations) for
the growth and maturing of the believer.
Recently, in fact, this has been the case with me.
For although I did not find out about it until several days after the event, on June 30, CNN’s Nancy Grace Program
aired a lengthy segment on prime time television about my upcoming journal book. I
learned about the program when I happened to call a friend who then told me about the show.
Then, a few weeks
later, my friend was able to obtain a transcript of the Nancy Grace Program which she in turn sent to me to peruse.
I all fairness, as I reviewed the transcript, I did see that some of what had been reported
is correct. Yes, if it be the Lord’s will, many of my current journal entries
are going to be in a book. This was not my idea, however. Instead it was an inner vision of a handful of my closest friends who felt that my writings should be published.
Then, at some point, what was a thought in their minds began to take shape and may now
become a reality.
Of course, as per New York State’s
Executive Law, in the section which deals specifically with crime victims, I would not be permitted to make any money from
such a publication, nor would I want to.
Unbeknown to Ms. Grace, though, in 2004 a contract was signed between myself and the
publisher, and we agreed that a percentage of the gross profits that would normally go to the “author” will instead
be given to the New York State Crime Victim’s board for eventual distribution to the families of the victims of my crimes,
if they want it..
So it was disappointing to learn about the misinformation that was presented to the public
by an emotionally charged Nancy Grace when she told her viewers that I might make “millions” of dollars from the
book which, by the way, as of this moment, is nowhere near completion.
Furthermore, also on the program was an attorney, David Wohl, whom I do not know. He was urging one of the mothers of one of my victims, who was also being interviewed
for this segment from her home, that she should seek a civil judgment against me for “any money that this multiple murderer
might make.” What ignorance! Obviously
Mr. Wohl knows nothing about the contract which was carefully crafted and agreed upon long before this program was aired.
I do not fault Ms. Grace, however, and I have no axe to grind with her. I suppose, too, that she had the best of intentions to make
the public aware that I write a journal behind prison walls, and that at some future time some of these writings will be made
into a book.
But I do believe that it was unnecessary and even harmful to rile up the public needlessly
as well as aggravate the families of my victims.
Yet if it does come to pass that a book is published, I pray that it will become an inspiration
to many people from all walks of life. In addition, that there will be financial
benefits for the victims.
David Berkowitz
July
30, 2005
(*) 2 Corinthians
1:8
SOURCE: “Rush” Transcript for the Nancy Grace Program aired on June 30, 2005 at CNN.com
© 2005 David Berkowitz